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Writer's pictureJesse Ng

sometimes at night

Updated: Feb 20, 2024



Sometimes at night,

When there's nobody but the pitch black,

intruded by some hints of the indifferent

orange street lights,


When you sit against your headboard,

When you are holding your legs

gently toward your stomach,

softly brushing your shins,

then your feet,

your toes,


When you let go of that warm,

stagnant remainder from your lungs,

then finally at the hundredth time you succeed at ending that repeated melody still lingering in your mind…


Your mind lapses into a

complete silence.


Now you hear the gentle

seashore-like whisper of

the late night wind and

the strangely comforting sound of

some Vehicles

still rolling… from afar,


Some glad Affirmations from

your midnight companies.


When you feel

the temperature of the intimate air rubbing its

Loud but,

wordless existence

onto your skin,


When your own focus turns the silence into

more


Clearer sounds.


Yes, some Beeping, but mostly just

Whirling,

Whispering.


Your thoughts and body finally in one,

Happily in sync,

Interlocking,


Motionless.

Then all at once,

all sounds snap back into

One fine thread.

A thought.


Then you realize that

nothing matters

anymore.


No more Desires,

no more mundane stimulations,

no more nostalgia,

or the perpetual loneliness,

the short-lived, ExplOsive excitements,

the raging ambitions…

or the Arrogant dreams.


Nothing matters.

And nobody has to care

too much about

not being able to satisfy anyone or,

anything.


No more.


Because no matter what you do,

for better or for worse,

the Earth keeps


Spinning,

the stubborn air keeps


Whispering,

its cold surface still

endearingly glides on your skin.


And here you are,

Still breathing.


Just because of this simplest reason and

your most intrinsic privilege to listen to

the Symphony of the Atmosphere

Waltzing around your ears

during your briefest existence in the

most unpredictably vast

History of the Universe,

nothing appears

any significant

anymore.


It's hard to put into words.

Only those who dare to feel it

share this most common, real, yet also most

evasive human experience.

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